whEn

I guess it's time,
to face the truth,
Cause I know that I can't keep on holding back.
Well yes, you're right,
this love it's true,
but I can't seem to figure out what to do.

Cause I'm feeling hard to express,
the way I really feel.
But I think this time, oh yes, its real,
do you feel the way i do?

When will I get to hold your hand,
and hold it close to my heart?
I'd be a fool if I let you,
cause I'll only miss you more.
When will I be the special one,
to give you all the love?
I don't know how and I don't know why,
but I know that you are my
Angel

(lyrics unfinished)

a song for someone special

SaLvatioN for a friend

It has been 16 years now that I believed in Chrit. But yet, I haven't actually shared the gospel with my friend and the ones I care and love...

Love comes from God above, and it it because of him that I can love others...

It should be time that I practice the great and amazing love that God gave me and tell friend about the wonderful news about my Lord and saviour Jesus Christ.

My top 7 list:

1. Koh Jia Yi
2. Derrick Loh Sue Chi
3. Shinn
4. Andy
5. Thye Hong Chee
6. Chan Junson
7. Lee Say Ket

May God bless me with wisdom and you guys with patience as I prepare myself to serve the Lord and bring good news to me.... Amen.

expeRience of a liFEtme: baNd Recording

Wow... Recording session.. I didn't knew it was that Professional. Haha... It was so so so fun...

During the mid-year holiday of Malaysia (of course), I went back to Seremban hoping to be a pop-star when I come back... Well, it didn't turn out that way, but I came back more experienced...

During the holiday, I took a bus back to Seremban to meet up with Asher, my old church friend. It was my first time taking a bus to Seremban ALONE. I had to assure my parents that nothing unwanted would happen and everything would be great before I was granted the permissions to do so.

Upon reaching Seremban, I met up with Asher at the train station. I had to actaully walk from the bus terminal to the train station to meet up with him. Come to think of it, it wasn't that far away... Haha... Later we went to Parkson's Salvation Bookstore to meet up with his mom, Aunty Helen. Oh yeah, later we got ourselves a McDonalds beef burger and cheeseburger for a snack.

The day came I stayed at Asher’s house for the following days. We went to church to practice our songs, and rehearsed the songs we wanted to record. During that time, I met up with my other band mates too... Kai Keong ("gai geok" aka chicken leg) and Henry.

(top: Asher, left: Kai Keong, right: Henry)

We had a great time practicing together as friends as well as a band. We fooled around so much. It was so much fooling around that, every recording we made on our phones, was filled with such laughter and "friendly scolding"... Hahaha... I wished I can let you guys hear it...

When my band, named Miss Sunshine, headed to KL a day before "recording day". We stayed at Asher's aunts' house. Her house was located in SS2, and her house was so nice. Auntie was so friendly. Her husband gave us a sumptuous dinner at a nearby restaurant the night we went there. Oh man, you couldn't imagine how generous he was... That dinner cost him a staggering RM200++. THANK YOU, UNCLE!!!!

Well, we had some problems during the first night we stayed there. Asher was a bit frustrated... And, BOOM! a conflict began.... Well, like all conflicts, it ended with all of us getting along much better....

"Recording Day". We were so excited. We kept on wishing for time to pass by till 6pm. But time remained still. We had to practice and prepare ourselves for the big moment. We were so so anxious...

After enjoying some rojak and cendol nearby Asher's aunt's house, we left for SAE ( the name of the college where we should be recording). We needed to go by train then by taxi to the place. We got down the wrong station and needed to travel back. It was such a scare. Well, it was worth it as what was going to happen was a darn great experience.

We met up with the "recorders". One of them was Asher's cousin, Jonathan. It was because of him and because they needed some recordings for their graduation project, that enabled us to be get a chance to be recorded... Oh, and Lionel was the audio engineer who was going to work with us. After a dinner around 9pm at the mamak, we went up to the college, which is like a shop house college, to be recorded.

It was the first time that I saw such gadgets. Everything was computerized. Sound-proof rooms, a room filled with audio stuffs and an jamming room, er I mean recording room. After a good first impression, well a very good impression according to Lionel, and some photo taking by Lionel's girl friend, we started to record our song, an instrument at a time.

As we failed to produce a guide track, we played just accordingly to what Lionel told us to. Our first recording was the song, "Dear Maria Count Me In" by All Time Low.

I was the first one to be recorded as I was the drummer. I needed to play not only without music but also exactly according to a metronome, which means my beat needs to be exact. Wow... It was hard, it was about like 75minutes before I was able to produce something above satisfaction.... After that, my drumsticks were like ice-cream sticks, wet through.

It was Asher's turn... He was the mastermind of the recording deal and also the pro guitarist in the band. But then, Lionel only realized that out cover song began with the guitar, not the drum. So my effort was wasted. 75minutes of skill and sweat!!!

So we start from scratch. Asher started. He played the rhythm guitar part.
Man! His part of the recording was so fluent, unlike mine... When he was done, he came out and said "pro". I smacked him back and said "Ya lar, ya lar...."
Then it was Kai Keong's (chicken leg) turn. He was not much of a pro... But he did quite well.

And it was my turn. It was the same. I took up to much time. But time, everything was less satisfying..

Lionel realized that this couldn't go on. As it was already like 3am. So he decided that we should record as a band, cause according to him, we sound much better that way...
Well, as Lionel knew we were so darn tired.. He took us all to the 24hour McDonalds nearby to eat and let some stress out. I and Asher opted to eat at the mamak as it was cheaper.

After out very very early breakfast, we got back together to have a last try as a band. Everything turned out quite good. Lionel and everyone of us were satisfied... Yeah!!! By this time it was already like 4.30am. Us band members finished our job and it was Asher's turn for the vocals. Haha... I returned to the control room and rested.

Soon everything was done, and Lionel had to work with the recordings while Miss Sunshine members slept. We were so worn out. Lionel too, slept after he had completed his work. Hmm... Jonathan nearly caused me not being able to sleep as he told about some weird stuff in his college where his friend heard an old woman’s voice last time.... Hahaha....

After some much needed sleep, we got our recording disk from Lionel and after some encouraging words from the audio team, we headed home filled with a great experience. We all took the bus back to Seremban. Then I had to catch another bus to go back to JB while the others head home.

It was a great experience looking back now... I bet that you haven't had this kind of experience before... Hahah...

late Post FOr a late friend

It has been about 2 moonths now... But the memories still remains. The pain and the emptyness... Still there.. And I still miss her... a lot...

She sat near me during Form 1, class J1Z of 2006. Well, it was a year to remember for me. New friends, new school. Well, other than that, it didn't took me long to find out that Vivian was a active girl. Hoo Ying Kiu, Bong Zi Yun and her made the most noice around my area. Hah! And it was I who gave them the nickname, "the three bird". Remember?

Hui Ven was in the same class with me during Form 2 too. But, I didn't really get to know her that much... But all that matters is that, I got to know her better..

Form 3 was a year without Hui Ven. I was calling her "Hui Wen" lesser as her chinese name was "Hui Min". I sort of miss that. Being in different class, made me see her lesser too... But she never failed to come back to the class where she loved, which is my class, J3z of 2008. Haha... Great class...

Yeah, I also gave Hui Ven a birthday present.. A late one... It was a small key chain. It was a token of a friendship and sort of token of regret for like missing out on her since she was not in the same class as me. She liked it... And I smiled..

One of my greatest regrets for her is that I couldn't get her to go on the Sungkai Trip. It was such a great trip. It was such a shamed that i left her out of the planning... Sometimes, I still wished I could turn things around, and go back to sort things out, the better way. Hui Ven didn't make it to the trip not because she didn't wanted to. But it was my lack of responsibility. I thought that Jia Kang wasn't going to the trip as I thought he was pulling out of it. Well, it's not his fault. I was the one that didn't put Hui Ven on my list of "important contacts".

What's done is done. And things still remain the way they are.

It was such an unexpected thing to know that Hui Ven left this world. I was just upstair when my little brother told me Janice Khoo Tze Yuen wanted to tell me something important. I wasn't expecting to be told that. When Janice told me that one of our freinds died, I was shocked. When I heard that it was Hui Ven, I was shaken.

She was just a 16-year-old. Young, cute and happy. Well, I think all who know her agree on that. But God took her away. I must say, it was too quick... Too fast.

Yet my greatest grieve now is that I haven't shared Christ with her... A girl who deserved to know the Lord, to know Jesus the way I do, didn't get the chance.

Hui Ven, I promised I will let the others know Christ ok? It's the least I do.

Oh, and also, I miss u real much. I dedicate this song to you, David Cook- Permanent.

Sorry again, but Jesus still loves you.

movie experience

Oh yeah... Movie experience, a real unique one.

31 Aug 2009. Merdeka Day of course. That morning I suggested to mum that the whole family go out for a movie. Well, mum was going to go out anyways (haha) so she had to agree.

We went to Tebrau Jusco for the show. I wanted to watch the show. Friends told me that it was so nice. They cried, laughed and had a great time watching the movie. Well, I wouldn't want to miss a movie like this one.

Upon arriving at Jusco Tebrau City, mum dropped me off to buy the movie tickets in case the tickets for the 2.30pm show would be sold out. Wow... I was feeling so good as I went to the cinema counter to buy the tickets, 5 of them.

Later, i meet up with mum and had lunch with the family at Old Town White Coffee. I had my Ipoh Hor Fun. It doesn't taste quite as nice as the one I had in Seremban2 Jusco's Old Town Kopitiam. That one was so so so sumptious. Well, its food anyway.

While eating, mum asked me about the price of the tickets. "$54" I said. She was surprised by how expensive the tickets were. I counted for her, 4 x $12 plus $6 (kids ticket for my little brother... hahaha). Then she used her hand to push my head. That day, only mum, dad, lee tian (my little brother) and I were going to watch the movie "Up".

"OH!" I said.

After lunch, mum and dad accompanied me back to the cinema counter to try to ask the cashier to refund the ticket. But, as usual, tickets are not refundable. Silly me. Then i asked the cashier to help me sell the ticket. But man, was he so reluctant saying it was late though it was clearly 1:50pm, 40 more minutes before the show starts.

Well, I had to do something! My dad made the first move by asking the people nearby whether they were going to buy "Up" tickets. We could sell them our extra one. I was so very "paiseh". Imagine me standing there, asking people whether they were wanting to buy my extra tickets, and getting refused. It was like sort of selling pasar malam DVDs. Hahaha...

Then this group of friends came. They were like young adults, but FRIENDLY. I asked them whether they were going watch "Up" and to my pleasant surprise THEY WERE!

Oh, thank God.

They were so good to me, er, I mean my family and me. So coorperating. Unlike the cashier guy. We discussed out that they, who were wanting to buy 5 tickets, should buy 4 tickets, so I could sell them mine. But we were going to change seats so that i can sit with my family and they will be able to sit together. Clever me.

It was hard discussing that. They, consisting of a really nice looking lady and 2 great guys (2 other friends were coming later) were so so so good to me, er, I mean me and my family. If it was not for them, I wouldn't have enjoy the amazing Pixar and Disney movie. I do hope the guy and the pretty lady do end up together. 2 kind-hearted people. Great couple.

there they are explaining how our "plan" works... sweet aren't
they... love you guys... thanks for your help... hope you two end up together...

And also, not forgetting, thumbs up to "Up" a great movie and touching tale. Bravo! You guys should go watch it. Full of amazing stuffs and laughter. :)

Father's Day SpeCiaL

It's been so long since Father's Day... And sorry for not blogging much lately. Busy man, busy. Well anyway, this is for my dad, my pops...

Fathers are the kind of humans that are somehow caring in a sort of "violent" way, should i say? Well, fathers actually do fit well with the canes, belts and slaps in our lives... There's no doubt about that. But tell me, isn't there half a chance that you would stop to notice the love our fathers give us?

To be frank, i've almost forgotten how my father loved me when i was younger. He was so loving to the family. But because of my "teenage curse", i use to think my dad as a violent, useless, shouting like mad person... Well, until now.....

It was so sudden. I was trying to find a book that is like a bedtime story book to me when i was young. It was hard to find, but alas i found it. Flipping through the pages that are so familiar to me, made me remember something... I didn't read the book myself when i was young. It was dad...

Memories of me taking the book to dad and asking him to read it for me flash by... I remember clearly the one story that i like is "Fillmytummy Troll". And i used to ask dad to flip through every page to see if there were any of Fillmytummy Troll's stories left in the book.... I wanted him to read it to me... Cause he was such a good storyteller...

And this made me think of dad, the habits he used to have... Dad always tells us the same stories when i ws getting older... All these stories had morals inside. I used to listen to them, but after a number of times... BORING!!! Change the topic PLEASE!!!!

But looking it in another way, i realised that dad had almost memorized every word of the stories... Could it be that dad told us these stories that i once loved so much till he can memorize it till today? Did he find so much stories to tell to his children, us, to let us listen eagerly, and even memorized the stories to entertain us... All his stories, his interesting jokes....

Dad sure sacrificed a lot for me. He red me the bible when i was young and till now, i know almost every bible stories in it. He read me so much Fillmytummy Troll stories till the print on the pages were gone, almost....

Remembering these made me RE-love him once again and changed my view of him and as a dad who only knows how to scold me, nag me and shout at me... That changes a lot... I love him. Love you, DAD!!

I sure do...

mother's day SPeCia:L

Momma!

Mum is always special, unique to others. Let's put it this way, do we ever ever compare our mothers? NO! Never. And that slightly explain how we secretly love, care and think of our mother.

Mothers aren't always appreciated, you know? Take ourselves for instance. Do we? Come on frankly.

When we're first born, we say an angel. (Besides the "evil" doctor who smacked our dear butt to make us cry.) She was the lady who would be raining care upon us for years to come. She would risk anything, ANYTHING to see us unhurt. She'd give up her life for us.

Let's face it. We'd never understand how our mums feel. But there's this question I want to ask you. Could you imagine how you mum would feel like when her child dies? ... ...

The heartbreak, the pain, the agony of facing the truth that she'd never ever believe in... You know, some mothers could even recover from the heartbreak of losing a child.

My mother. Brilliant. I remember when I was 7, I couldn't finish my homework. And it was goin to be midnight. (Hey, i actually stayed up till that late while I was still so small.) She held my hand and help me do my homework... And you know, I am a left-hander. But that didn't stop her. She, never wrote properly with her left hand before, took my hand steadily and help me finish my "sheng zi" (means vocabulary writing). I was like half awake, maybe entirely asleep then. She had to position me properly and grab my hand to write at the same time. And she was a teacher who need to get up to work early in morning the next day.

And there was one time, when I nearly lost her. She had gastric, or similar to food poisoning, only to be far more serious, because she ate to much "ye jiang" and that made her so weak. I didn't know how much i loved her, i cared about her. I wouldn't even dare to imagine life without her. I grabbed her hands tight, so tight... Wishing that she would be all right. And THANK GOD, she was safe.

I know this is a really late post for mother's but, I just want to thank my mum, and your mum, that you're here, you're safe. And just say "I love you, mum" to her, when you have gathered enough guts to do it. All mums are caring, you just need to be mature enough to see through the way she cares for you...

Mumma, LOVE you always...